Yes, this is me. I turn 46 on Tuesday. I decided to have my side of the family over for a pre-birthday celebration last night. Ed, my husband makes the best BBQ sauce I have ever had EVER. If you are lucky you have had it. Turning 46 is an odd birthdate for me. My dad died when he was 45 and 46 kind of seems like a sit up and listen year for me. Pay attention. So I am. I am settling in what I am hoping is our house for a long time. I am growing my gray wavy unruly hair out. (you should see the back, curly!) I can feel the need to make changes. I want different, better, more meaningful. I haven't created since I got my show ready for the AV Gallery which was at the first of this year. My studio is almost completely organized and ready for me. It will come. It has to be right. I have been creating a home for Ed and Lucy and I which I hate to say but after nearly 7 years of Ed and I being together, this is the first time I feel like this is OUR home. The right place. I love spending time with my nephew and niece. They are all grown up and after being away with the Marines for Mark and college for Katie they are going to be closer and hopefully will have more time to "play" with us again. My brother Roger and my always sister in law Cindy are so lucky to have these great kids. I am blessed. My Mom is my rock! With every turn I make, every crazy idea I have she is there alongside of me. I am blessed. My guy Eddie Lee well he is my love and my soft place. I am blessed. Jim my step dad is always willing to help me. Even before the gathering he fixed a lock, hung a mirror and installed a hose winder....a beautiful hose winder I might add. I am blessed.