Wednesday, March 29, 2017
I have been working a lot in 2017 to ready myself for a few upcoming shows and even art retreat but, before I talk about any of that I feel I need to share what happened in 2016. I lost some really important and very loved people and dog. They will live forever in my heart and in my memories. Ed and I had our beloved Basset Hound put to sleep in February. My cousin Rick died from long illnesses due to kidney disease and kidney transplant. My sweet husband Eddie Lee passed in early November after a failed liver transplant. Within a month our dear little baby Riley Marie was gone. There really are no words to describe these losses. I know I loved everyone really BIG!!!! My life is changed forever. I made it through the holidays. I am not really sure how. There was a lot of sitting in my chair behavior and just overwhelming sadness. I would always gather myself when seeing friends and family but, I was hurting. It hit me in March when I was with my family for a birthday that the laughter was back. Not 100% but, there was laughter. It was a very real moment for me. With death comes a lot of details. Insurance policies, maintaining health insurance, changing names on things, etc. Stuff most of us have no clue about. At the time it felt like a full time job. Now it is a memory. There are many, many phases of grief. I am not sure which one I am in now. I am so happy that I am working again and said yes to some opportunities that have come along.